I think of it as a year ago today, it was actually the 17th of January when Denise Amber lee was taken out of her home, kidnapped, raped and murdered. I remember clearly that it was a Thursday. {Today is Thursday} I had my regular cleaning/shopping job in North Port. I wont repeat all the details again, I am sure it is written somewhere. I don't know if I will ever understand why it effected me so much. I didn't know her or her family.
I had many friends tell me that I shouldn't think about it, obviously why would I want to think about it? Maybe my connection comes from being a stay at home mom too. ? I just cannot understand how anybody could do this to a person? wtf!?!? This savage sick son of a Bitch needs to be put down. I honestly have not let him invade my thoughts that much anymore. I just try not to think about him at all. it is just so insane! she was minding her own business, doing what she loved, being home with her babies! Just the other day a man came to my door -I saw his landscaping truck, door open, and he knocked on the door asking if I wanted my tree trimmed. { I remember opening the door and telling him thanks but we are losing our home- so the tree is the least of our worries } Right after I shut the door I told Kyle, I shouldn't of opened the door! what was I thinking? I was actually shaking a little. I thought about Denise Again, could it have been something as simple as that? someone asking if she needed service on the house? anything? in an instant your life can be totally gone. Haven't we all opened the door without thinking? I don't want to live where I am scared of everything!? yet, I know things can happen too. I think about how her last moments were, what she may have been doing before he came to the door. There is no way she could have even imagined something so horrific happening. It has put my life in perspective a bit more. You never know when your last day will be, however, if you overthink it too much it could turn into OCD I'm sure. It makes me want to call scott a thousand times a day and tell him I love him one more time. I dont think he would appreciate it much with his pre-paid phone. haha Besides, I know he already knows. I hope that everyone I care about already knows how I feel. I try to live that way.
We are trying to make changes within the 911 system. It is clearly going to be a long road. We will prevail though, and hopefully turn this tragedy into triumph.
Denise you will never be forgotten
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Kayla at her first Horse Show
hooves
Bubbles .......then
Bubbles.........now
Mane Keychains
Horse Hair art....
Key chains I made for SBS, Child Abuse awareness
Fire....
On Christmas Eve.........
The Center For Great Apes
www.centerforgreatapes.org
Jam
Kodua
A view of the center from above
2 comments:
{{{HUGS}}} Dear Jeanine, It's difficult to find words. Yes, it was a Thursday. I hadn't thought of it that way. Your friends are right and you shouldn't overly stress over this. But, please know, how very very much your appreciated by our family. You are a genuinely lovely person who Denise, I know, would have loved to know. I'm so glad to have you as part of my life. love you, much. Peggy
I think it is wonderful that you have put yourself into helping this cause. The whole thing really hit me hard as well, probably because of being a stay at home mom and thinking about how I don't pay enough attention to staying safe. You just don't think it is necessary to NOT open the door when someone knocks, ya know? But it has caused me to be more cautious. Hopefully big changes can be brought about with the 911 system now and atleast something positive will have came from such a terrible tragedy. ((hugs))
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