Friday, January 8, 2010

2010

A new year already and not much has changed from the last. I keep hoping I will magically wake up and the last few years were a dream. sigh.............
What doesn't kill us will make us stronger right? I hope so. I will keep trudging forward with the best I can give. I am forever grateful for my wonderful husband and 2 amazing kids and family and friends. "someday " comes to mind.... I wish for a better new year for all.

Someday ~ Rob Thomas

You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you wanna do is cry

And maybe someday we’ll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud
We’ll be better off somehow, someday

Now we wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it’s good to be someone

And maybe someday we’ll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud
We’ll be better off somehow, someday

I don’t wanna wait
I just wanna know
I just wanna hear you tell me so
Give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow

‘Cuz maybe someday we’ll figure all this out
We’ll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just to feel better now
Maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud
We’ll be better off somehow, someday

‘Cuz sometimes we don’t really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over, again

‘Cuz sometimes we don’t really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over, again


Thanks to back2good for the lyrics.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Harley

Harley Header

Monday, August 24, 2009

words that will haunt me

10:58 a.m. Blog: Denise Lee's 911 call quoted in opening statements

"I'm sorry. Please let me go. Please let me go. Oh God please please help me please let me see my family again."

Prosecutor Lon Arend began his opening statements Monday by directly quoting the 911 call that Denise Lee made after she was abducted from her North Port home.


Today was the first day of the trial and it starts out like this. This was a transcript. {not even the actual call with her voice} I cannot hear that if I can help it in any way. I have no words, just strong emotions and anger. Oh god please let me see my family again! and she fought so hard!! and people wonder why I would question faith.

I watched it from my computer when I could. I found myself anxious and going from telling myself I am not going to watch to saying I need to. I don't know why.???

I have been attached to this since the beginning, I guess I am telling myself I owe it to Denise and her family to continue through the trial. Never before has someone I never knew effected me so much. I keep telling myself that once this is over I will not read any more newspapers or allow myself to get involved in anything else so horrible and sad. will it ever really be over? will the fears go away? the horrible visions of what she went through?

sigh........... who knows.....

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Bubbles

I have had the pleasure of meeting Bubbles. He is so sweet. It is sad that with all the money Michael Jackson made that he didn't give some to the center for his care.
here is an article from people.

updated 8:59 a.m. ET, Tues., June 30, 2009

With all the discussion surrounding the shocking death of Michael Jackson, people have wondered whatever happened to his beloved chimpanzee Bubbles. It turns out, the chimp is alive and well and monkeying around in a Florida primate sanctuary, PEOPLE has learned.

The 26-year old chimp, who lived with Jackson in the late 1980s, has spent the past four years at the Center For Great Apes, home to forty-two chimpanzees and orangutans.

"He's a very sweet and nice chimp, he really is," says sanctuary director Patti Ragan. "I've seen him go to the drinking fountain, start to take a sip of water and then, when he hears one of the younger ones coming, he'll step back and let them have a sip."
A Jackson visit?
Bubbles was born at a facility in Texas that breeds primates for medical testing before Jackson adopted him in the '80s. The chimp arrived at Ragan's sanctuary — which is not open to the public — in 2005 after the singer's former animal trainer stopped working with primates. Not long after, a rep for Jackson contacted the facility, saying that Michael wanted to come and visit his former buddy. But the singer never made the trip.

Over the years, Bubbles has grown into a good-sized adult, and now weighs 160 lbs. His facial features have also changed since his days when he often romped around with Jackson in matching Western outfits. "That pink baby face of his has disappeared," Ragan says. "He still has a lot of fleshy color in his face. But he's a huge guy now and that probably is going to surprise a lot of people."

These days, he spends his time hanging out with a group of six other chimps. Among his favorite things to do: eating sweet potatoes, listening to flute-and-guitar music, painting and kicking back with longtime buddy Sam, 40. "The two of them like to climb up to the top of a cupola [located on the sanctuary grounds] and just sit there, staring out over the orange groves, watching the traffic in the distance," says Ragan. "He loves being up there."

Bubbles's future
And the chimpanzee hasn't been told of his former owner's recent death. "We haven't said anything to him yet," she says, adding that his mood over the past few days has been typically chimp-like: "He's been his usual self, interacting with friends, eating well, taking cover when it rains."

Ragan says it's not yet known if Jackson stipulated that any money from his estate would be used to support Bubbles, who could easily live to the age of 60. To this date, his care has come from solely from public donations. To learn more about Bubbles's new home, go to CenterForGreatapes.org

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Mane chains....

This was fun. Before the Horse show they were cutting a piece of the mane on some of the horses, to better fit the halters. I was petting my favorite horse "Harley" and I looked down and saw his hair. I thought.... hmmm... what could I do with this? then I brought it home and this is what I came up with. a rush job, but it was fun. hey it might sound strange, but there are lots of uses for horse hair, violin strings, etc,.. right? why not art? I thought it would be nice to give all the kids one at their last horse lesson class. it's cute cause now a few of the kids will run up to me with a handful of matted horse hair they found on the ground and say "we have some horse hair for the keychains". It is just a lovely place. we want to nominate this family for the extreme home makeover. they do so much for the community and these horses, and all the kids. It would be wonderful if they could get something like that.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

What do Chimpanzees and motor oil have in common?

What do chimpanzees and motor oil have in common? If you said nothing, you probably missed Super Bowl 43, when these otherwise incongruent entities shared the screen in a 30-second commercial for Castrol Edge.

In the spot (titled "Grease Monkeys" despite the fact that its simian stars are not monkeys but apes), a slacker lounges in his garage as chimpanzee "mechanics" work on his car. Crowned with an oil filter, the man tells his neighbor that the chimps have made him their king.

The half-minute commercial may have generated a few laughs, and somehow even spiked motor oil sales, but the price paid by the animal actors isn't worth it, according to Patti Ragan, founder of the Center for Great Apes in Wauchula, Florida.

Ragan's facility is home to 42 chimpanzees and orangutans, many of whom are retired from show business. Some starred in previous Super Bowl commercials, including popular spots for E-Trade and CareerBuilder.com. It's because she is caring for these former Super Bowl stars that Ragan was troubled by the new Castrol spot. 2009-02-10-ChimpanzeeBella.jpg

"Having animals that have appeared in Super Bowl commercials before, and knowing what the issues are, it made me very sad to see those chimps, and to see that we haven't moved beyond that," Ragan said in a phone interview. "People don't think about what happens to these animals after they appear in these commercials. They don't know that we're sacrificing an endangered animal's future to make money for a company selling a product."

The use of apes in entertainment is nothing new (just ask Bonzo), but thanks to recent campaigns by Jane Goodall and other primatologists, we now know the problems inherent in the practice. On her website, Goodall points out that performing primates are separated from their mothers as infants and discarded by the time they reach puberty. Since chimpanzees live 50 to 60 years in captivity, that means these hirsute has-beens will require decades of costly care after the end of their short show-biz careers.

The lucky ones -- like Jason Alexander's orangutan sidekick from Dunston Checks In -- end up at places like the Center for Great Apes. The Castrol chimps may not be so fortunate. "I'm beyond capacity," Ragan says, noting she has more than a dozen apes on her waiting list but lacks the resources to take them in. It costs approximately $15,000 a year to care for one ape, and like most non-profits, the Center is feeling the pinch of the current economic crisis.

While everyone involved with a commercial -- from the network and ad agency to the actors, caterers, and animal trainers -- makes money, nothing is put aside for the animals' future. No residual checks are wending their way to Wauchula for the former stars of the CareerBuilder ads, even though their likenesses are still being used on the company's website.

"CareerBuilder has stopped using chimpanzees in their commercials, which is wonderful, however they still have their Monk-E Mail campaign on their website," Ragan says. "They have our chimpanzee Bella, in a pink dress and pearls, and Ellie, a female that was seven-years-old, whom they put makeup on to make her look like an old male executive." (Bella is pictured above; Ellie is below left in the CareerBuilder ad, and right, at the Center.)

ChimpanzeeEllie.jpg

Ragan, who has urged the company to remove the chimps from its website, adds, "I would like CareerBuilder to consider the revenue they get from exploiting those chimps that we are now taking care of, and to think about where those chimps are right now."

Beyond their effect on the lives of the individual apes in the ads, commercials like Castrol's may have a negative impact on conservation, according to a recent study published in Science. The study found that because chimps are so widely used in TV shows and commercials, people assume they must be thriving -- a dangerous misconception according to lead author Steve Ross, chair of the American Zoo and Aquarium Association's Chimpanzee Species Survival Plan. "This inaccurate and inappropriate portrayal of chimpanzees may negatively influence the way the public perceives this endangered species, which is in need of serious conservation efforts," Ross said.

Needless to say, dressing chimps in clothing and prompting them to mimic human behavior further distorts public perception of these apes. Such depictions may tickle the funny bone, but at what cost? "For us to get a few yuks," Ragan says, "it doesn't justify jeopardizing the lives of these animals -- taking them away from their mothers, using them for a few years, and leaving them with an uncertain future."

Some advertisers have chosen to get out of the ape business altogether. Honda, Subaru, and Yahoo! are among the companies that have pledged to quit using apes in their advertisements. Ragan applauds those companies and urges others to follow suit. She also calls on the advertisers, networks, and the Super Bowl itself to consider their complicity.

"The people who write these commercials and sell the companies on using great apes, and the people who buy these commercials and sell the airtime, they need to think about what they're doing to impact wildlife, impact animal welfare, impact people's attitudes about conservation, and impact these individual animals' lives."

Brenda Scott Royce The Huffington Post

Thursday, January 15, 2009

A year ago Today....

I think of it as a year ago today, it was actually the 17th of January when Denise Amber lee was taken out of her home, kidnapped, raped and murdered. I remember clearly that it was a Thursday. {Today is Thursday} I had my regular cleaning/shopping job in North Port. I wont repeat all the details again, I am sure it is written somewhere. I don't know if I will ever understand why it effected me so much. I didn't know her or her family.
I had many friends tell me that I shouldn't think about it, obviously why would I want to think about it? Maybe my connection comes from being a stay at home mom too. ? I just cannot understand how anybody could do this to a person? wtf!?!? This savage sick son of a Bitch needs to be put down. I honestly have not let him invade my thoughts that much anymore. I just try not to think about him at all. it is just so insane! she was minding her own business, doing what she loved, being home with her babies! Just the other day a man came to my door -I saw his landscaping truck, door open, and he knocked on the door asking if I wanted my tree trimmed. { I remember opening the door and telling him thanks but we are losing our home- so the tree is the least of our worries } Right after I shut the door I told Kyle, I shouldn't of opened the door! what was I thinking? I was actually shaking a little. I thought about Denise Again, could it have been something as simple as that? someone asking if she needed service on the house? anything? in an instant your life can be totally gone. Haven't we all opened the door without thinking? I don't want to live where I am scared of everything!? yet, I know things can happen too. I think about how her last moments were, what she may have been doing before he came to the door. There is no way she could have even imagined something so horrific happening. It has put my life in perspective a bit more. You never know when your last day will be, however, if you overthink it too much it could turn into OCD I'm sure. It makes me want to call scott a thousand times a day and tell him I love him one more time. I dont think he would appreciate it much with his pre-paid phone. haha Besides, I know he already knows. I hope that everyone I care about already knows how I feel. I try to live that way.

We are trying to make changes within the 911 system. It is clearly going to be a long road. We will prevail though, and hopefully turn this tragedy into triumph.
Denise you will never be forgotten

Kayla at her first Horse Show

Kayla at her first Horse Show

hooves

hooves

Bubbles .......then

Bubbles .......then

Bubbles.........now

Bubbles.........now

Mane Keychains

Mane Keychains
Horse Hair art....

Key chains I made for SBS, Child Abuse awareness

Key chains I made for SBS, Child Abuse awareness

Fire....

Fire....
On Christmas Eve.........

The Center For Great Apes

The Center For Great Apes
www.centerforgreatapes.org

Jam

Jam

Kodua

A view of the center from above

A view of the center from above