whew

Things are finally starting to look up. After this three year roller coaster of hell, emotions I would like to forget, I have been going non stop for about three weeks straight. We have moved back to Englewood. Really close to the ranch. I love the new house, I started working and it looks like we are going to be okay.
The kids are happy and I think it can only get better from here on out.

I don't care~

I don't care if you like me.... Just don't pretend that you do.

If you want to know something about me than just ask, don't assume.

My Kids

A great day at Stump Pass, Just the three of us. A much needed day of alone family time was so nice. Lately, it seems we have all been busy going in different directions, always surrounded by others. Which we love~ But sometimes it is nice to just be with family, out in nature. UNPLUGGED from the games, the phone, the internet........
Especially when times are hard, it is refreshing to know that no matter what happens we have eachother. I am so proud of my kids. They are my world. Some may not understand it. But it doesn't matter. Tend to your own children. My kids don't go without love and everything we do for them is because we love them.

The Horse Project....

Okay, so Kayla and Heidi are doing a demonstration for 4-H. "How to groom a horse". Heidi wants to be the horse. so I have been trying to come up with a way to make that happen. Here is the work in progress.... a long way to go ! they need more layers and paint and fur.... ..... lol

Bit Of Hope Ranch

My safe haven, the place we like to go to forget all our troubles. I just love it there. Kyle rode for the first time a few weeks ago. He has put in many many hours and never even logged them. He does not have an interest in riding much. But that is okay, I am just glad he tried. I rode a couple of times too and I love it. I am still a little nervous and saddened that age changes your whole state of mind and takes away the fun it seems. When I was younger I thought nothing of hopping on a horse and just going. Now as an adult I think 50 steps ahead, the horse has knocked me off, I visualize myself in the hospital, no insurance.... etc... maybe I need medication? no... but seriously, I am working on how to let go more often and just let it be. what will be will be.
Kayla is in 4-H and will be riding in shows and I for the most part will live vicariously through her. I envy her attitude, she is smart enough to know the risks and is not careless but she moves forward and pushes herself as much as she can. She is such a hard worker too. she was meant to live on a farm.

2010

A new year already and not much has changed from the last. I keep hoping I will magically wake up and the last few years were a dream. sigh.............
What doesn't kill us will make us stronger right? I hope so. I will keep trudging forward with the best I can give. I am forever grateful for my wonderful husband and 2 amazing kids and family and friends. "someday " comes to mind.... I wish for a better new year for all.

Someday ~ Rob Thomas

You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you wanna do is cry

And maybe someday we’ll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud
We’ll be better off somehow, someday

Now we wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it’s good to be someone

And maybe someday we’ll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud
We’ll be better off somehow, someday

I don’t wanna wait
I just wanna know
I just wanna hear you tell me so
Give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow

‘Cuz maybe someday we’ll figure all this out
We’ll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just to feel better now
Maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud
We’ll be better off somehow, someday

‘Cuz sometimes we don’t really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over, again

‘Cuz sometimes we don’t really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over, again

Thanks to back2good for the lyrics.